Apt 305

I guess I'm just shocked that you can just decide things without wondering how much trouble it can cause others.

I really wished that the apartment switch would have worked out.

And I guess you were thinking since i want a house mate, and can't find a place on my own then you can leave the place and find somewhere else. You were being thoughtful in your own way.

But I have no one to ask to be my house mate. So how?

I understand you have other concerns, that in long term, whatever happens the best way would be if we stayed separately. yes. I agree, and even if things work out, its fine if we stay apart after one year.. But now, this is superbly inconvenient. superbly. headache.

in 55!w !

Lots of things in my life.. but yet i'm still yearning for you.

I know we can't say yes, we're fine.

All i'm saying is to take one step at a time. Let's go celebrate the end of your torturous year - I'm so proud of you!!!! :):)

Italy - the land of gelato, pizza, pastas.. fountain pens and arts.

Let's fulfill our dreams and just have fun :)





I went to everything with fries today. The beef karubi was FANTASTIC. i'm sure you'll love it. and curry fries, yum yum. :) Just wanna share with you...

I cycled today, kinda slow.. but i like to take my time. miss riding with you.

Food for thought

To not stand in each other's way, but to stand with each other, helping if we can, watching if we can't.

I'm here rooting for you, watching you! jiayou <3

Vacillation

Mood swings, bipolarism.

I just thought of something. you know, even someone who claims to be steadfast and has undying love, faced such an uncertain period before; for no significant reasons.

Things, were just difficult, cumbersome. and well, friends seem to entertain me better than the times we had online.

And you were tired too, but you were certain you didn't want to let go.

Now its my turn. I'll be the stable one for you and I believe we can do it, especially with my realisation of how warped things have become.

We'll really be free and enjoy ourselves even if we might spend much less time together.

Trust, will bring security, and the resulting freedom, will release the chains of burdens in our hearts.

Actions, and words

I deleted you from FB yesterday..

I guess whether we are together or not, at least for now i don't wanna hear about your life unless you're the one telling me about it. And in the future, if we are back together, I don't wanna be your FB friend anymore.

Its so difficult, when i'm not that busy.. cos I have so much time thinking about you.

I miss the nights.. I miss hugging you to sleep.. I miss tickling.. I miss hearing your voice.. seeing your face...

now I can only stare at the gChat box and see ohhhhh he's online! but i can't say anything.. and you don't say hi..

I really hope to hear you sometime. I really hope that this is just a break.

Is effort/enjoyment proportional to the end product or length of time one has?

I don't think so.

There are seldom things that will last in life.

My RA attachment, 1 year long - I won't get any paper published. But hey, I produced 6 cko vectors and saved my lab $14,000 x 6.

does it mean that just because i know i'm not going to get anything out of it, i totally resist the attachment? No, i make the best out of it; learn, enjoy and produce as much as I can.

That's how i view life, and I'm sure you understand the meaning of enjoying the moment.
I believe you still value that motive; but its just that it isn't enjoyable anymore?

Then.. that isn't so hard.

Cos I realised I got lost along the way, and I'm ready to get back on track, I'm just waiting for you to agree to give us one more shot.

笑忘歌-五月天

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uU301hJtiu4&feature=PlayList&p=5B4AE49F2F63F5C4&playnext_from=PL&index=5&playnext=3

屋顶的天空是我们的
放学后夕阳也都会是我们的
不会再让步更多了

唱一首 属于我们的歌
让我们的伤都慢慢慢的愈合
明天我又会是全新的 OH~HO

青春是手牵手坐上了
永不回头的火 车
总有一天我们都老了
不会遗憾就OK了

伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清 澈
从头到脚趾都快乐

我和你都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢

自己和自己打一架了
想通想不通
反正就是这样了
不会再流泪更多了

有多少错误重蹈覆辙
有 多少苦痛
还不是都过来了
想起来甚至还会笑呢 OH~HO

青春是人生的实验课
错也错得很值得
就算 某天唱起这首歌
眼眶会有一点湿热

伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到 脚趾都快乐

我和你都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢

伤 心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐

我和你都约好了
要再唱 这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢

这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
谁 说这样不伟大呢

Carpe Diem

美國很有名的教授說過:
「人生的目標不在於一定要實現夢想，而在於 你沒有後悔的過每一天。」
要讓自已不再後悔，就應該「活在當下」，千萬別再讓自已活在後悔的過去，不然最後也只能 如煙...
- kerpohpwos on youtube

五月天 如煙
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxTN7gaIDSM&feature=PlayList&p=5B4AE49F2F63F5C4&playnext_from=PL&playnext=5&index=2

我坐 在床前　望著窗外　回憶滿天　
生命是華麗錯覺　時間是賊　偷走一切

七歲那一年　抓住那隻蟬　以為能抓住夏天
十七歲的那年　吻過他的臉　就以為 和他能永遠　

有沒有那麼一種永遠　永遠不改變　擁抱過的美麗都　再也不破碎
讓險峻歲月不 能在臉上撒野　讓生離和死別都遙遠　有誰能聽見

我坐在床前　轉過頭看　誰在沉睡　
那一張蒼老的臉　好像是我　緊閉雙眼

曾經是愛我的　和我深愛的　都圍繞在我身邊
帶不走的那些　遺憾和眷戀　就化 成最後一滴眼淚

有沒有那麼一滴眼淚　能洗掉後悔　化成大雨降落在　回不去的街
再給我一次機 會　將故事改寫　還欠了他一生的　一句抱歉

有沒有那麼一個世界　永遠不天黑　星星太陽萬物都　聽我的指揮
月亮不忙著圓 缺　春天不走遠　樹梢緊緊擁抱著樹葉　有誰能聽見

耳際　眼前　此生重演　是我來自漆黑　而又回歸漆黑
人間　瞬間　天地之間　 下次我　又是誰

有沒有那麼一朵玫瑰　永遠不凋謝　永遠驕傲和完美　永遠不妥協
為何人生最後 會像一張紙屑　還不如一片花瓣曾經鮮豔

有沒有那麼一張書籤　停止那一天　最單純的笑臉和　最美那一年
書包裡面裝滿 了蛋糕和汽水　雙眼只有無猜和無邪　讓我們無法無天

有沒有那麼一首詩篇　找不到句點　青春永遠定居在　我們的歲月
男孩和女孩都 有吉他和舞鞋　笑忘人間的苦痛　只有甜美

有沒有那麼一個明天　重頭回一遍　讓我再次感受曾　揮霍的昨天
無論生存或生 活　我都不浪費　不讓故事這麼的後悔

有誰能聽見　我不要告別
我坐在床前　看著指尖　已經如煙

Days..

I decided i wanna note down the times we talked in this month or things I think about in general.

Saturday 041710
I was awake all morning, and decided I wanted to ask you when was a "good time to talk" when I saw you online. So i asked:

"When might be a good time to chat about the apartment?"

"I asked her already, she's ok with switching"

... my only excuse of hearing you on the phone, poof! and i just suggested... it wasn't a decision. no discussion.

"So is it safe to assume we gonna talk about the rest after your exams?"

"Yeah..."

I was disappointed. how terse. and how unbelievable it suddenly got settled before i knew it, like it had before..?


Monday

"Yayyyy i finally got my recombineering construct!"

You disappeared offline, then came back on later and congratulated me.
You told me how research was not going well, both old and new.. and I told you I would be waiting for your paper :)

Friendly conversation.



Tuesday
"Could you help me with the Permutation and Combination question?"

Woahhh the answer/explanation you gave was great. I could understand it!! :):)

Thank you...




Today..
I haven't seen you appear online. I hope you're coping. It's difficult. I know this is beyond the normal limits, but I believe you can make it!!! :)

Good food!

Da Paolo Pizza bar

I love the calamari - though its not the crispy kind. the breading has a unique salty and tasty flavor. and the calamari is rich and chewy. YUM. thousand island-like spicy sauce. fantastisch!

Pizza... I still like parma ham and arugula. maybe we can try anchovies when you're here :)

http://www.dapaolo.com.sg/

Let bygones be bygones

Whatever is said and done, let them rest in peace.

All i'm asking, is for you to keep your heart open, and let us travel together one more time.

I believe things will work out.

And if things don't, then we'll find out what our comfort zones are..

Nakaya

Our Ascending dragon... I really wanna get it for you.

http://www.nakaya.org/special/ea_dragon.html

The dragon that lurks in the fog, but draws closer to the surface as time passes.. - That is my love for you, or I thought, our love.

信 - my insistence on inscribing the pen, so it'll be a special farewell, or momento of sorts for us. That I need to believe in me, and you, need to believe in us.

A pen as special as the nakaya, needs customisation, needs you to tell them what size of nib you want, and what the style of writing you have. There's nothing wrong with requesting customisation; that's the same as for us..

I know the manufacturing screwed up and the pen started leaking periodically.. but, the manufacturer wants to take it back to repair at no costs; and only wants you to give it one more try before deciding to keep or switch for another pen. That's all i'm asking.

April Fool's prank!

http://www.mentalfloss.com/blogs/archives/52148

I think you'll totally enjoy this. so cool! multi-dimensionallll~

Espresso

Remember our poem in SF?

You described our love as an espresso - strong and ephemeral. Honestly.. i was a little disappointed you said it was ephemeral.. but now i realize that it was me who lost sight along the way, and made our espresso sour..

Everyone makes mistakes, I do. But now i realize what went wrong, and all i ask is for you to try it when my cup is ready.. and if you don't like the taste, then go find some other beans.. but if you do, drink it, enjoy the rush of adrenaline until the day the beans run out..